My Quest for Healing is about the process I have been on while going from despair and misery to getting well physically, spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. I have searched and struggled and tried my hardest to be happy, healthy and mentally well for over 20 years. I know there are others out there who have struggled and been stuck with their own issues, and so I created this website in the hopes that through my struggles and now the things that I am learning, I can help someone else feel validated and figure out how to be healed, happy and successful. Permanently. One month after I started on this quest, I have already seen some great, and unexpected changes!

I have several hopes attached to this website: that this site will find those it can help – no matter what you’ve been through, or walk of life you come from, no matter your religion or what you believe in. And that the things that I share, and the way that I do it, won’t deter you from gaining insights for yourself and that you can use the things that I’ve been through to help you even if you don’t believe in everything that I do. I hope that you will read with an open mind and heart. Try to not let your thoughts get in the way just go by your instincts.

I have never just wanted a bandage to cover up my problems, I want them completely gone. I have believed that it is possible, I just haven’t known how to do it and what the tools are. For me, I’m not satisfied until I get to the root of my issues and get them out. I have been diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Attention Deficit Disorder; had many physical issues that doctors and other health-care professionals didn’t know how to fix; suicidal thoughts; self-loathing; social issues; very negative and obsessive thoughts and actions which I felt would destroy me; been a very high-stress and negative person and not available for my family; struggled with being mom for 3 boys including one with Down syndrome; couldn’t deal with marriage; in debt for 15+ years; many intense and paralyzing fears my whole life; low energy; couldn’t exercise because of knee and back pain; and almost constant feelings of misery and despair. If you want to know more about these issues and others, go to My History.

I have tried traditional medications and many different alternative therapies including: Chiropractic, Acupuncture, Homeopathy, Pilates, targeted exercises, eating raw food, herbal remedies, tried to strengthen my spirituality, and read/listened/watched many self-help methods. I struggled for 20 years to get well and in December of 2008 I came to the “realization” that most things didn’t work for me and I was just going to be miserable the rest of my life – however long that would be. The one thing that I have found to be a constant source of help to me, however, is my faith in Jesus Christ and the help that my Heavenly Father (or God as He is usually known as) gives me. Through the hard things, I am grateful that I still kept my faith intact. If I didn’t have the church I belong to and the hope that it gives, I know that I would not be alive today.

On New Years’ Eve, 2008, I was blessed with the knowledge and abilities I needed to get healing. I’ve heard about so many people being healed of many afflictions, and had always wondered specifically the things they did, step by step. I’ve wondered, “How long did it take them to see progress? Exactly what did they do? Was it easy? Did they have set-backs? Is my process the same as what they went through?” I haven’t come across anyone who has answered those questions for me, so I wanted to document the things that I did, the thoughts I had, and the changes I saw taking place so that it might benefit others. It really is my journal of the quest that I have been on, the questions I have, the set-backs, the sorrows and joys. I share it with you in my Healing Blog. I included the dates from a few weeks before my real quest actually started so that you can see a comparison (starting December 14, 2008). I am excited to look back at my documentation and see how much I have healed and how much happier and healthier I am in the future!

The methods that I write about are only the methods that I have come across so far in my quest for healing. I am sure that I will come across many more, and will talk about them in the future as I discover and learn about them.

In the sections Resources and Healing Blog I have many titles to books, cd's, and websites that are linked to some sites where you can buy or get more information about. Also, under Other Things in the Resources section I have included things that I have tried, read, and listened to that I have liked and that have helped me in some way.